This week

This morning we were awakened by four noisy geese honking up and down the river. I'm not sure why they were honking so long and so loud, but it was certainly preferable to the way we were awakened yesterday.

( Yesterday morning, a little after 8, we were awakened by knocking at our door. )

In other news . . .

Sorry I haven't been in touch much lately. Most days I don't have a lot of energy for too much, like answering emails or posting in LJ. My mood is rather
up and down most days, and I have a lot of anxiety. It makes it hard. Some days I get very discouraged and depressed. My medical events have changed a lot of my life, and I am trying to sift through and reconstruct. I dropped all my classes and lost my jobs this semester. I am registered for fall semester though. I am enjoying the time to read the books I want to read for fun! I also got out my spinning wheel again, and I have knitting projects and art supplies.

In health news, we are still waiting to hear when our oncologist appointment will be. We are hopeful that I won't need chemo. It is still very likely that I will need to have a complete hysterectomy, so I need to make decisions about childbearing soon. My incision is healing up quite well. Almost 4 inches at the top and 1 at the bottom are closed. I still have pain from time to time, but nothing too serious. I've been to the ER twice with severe pain since the
surgery, but I seem to be past that now, I hope!!! Molly changes my bandages every day, and the home health nurses discharged me from their care on Wednesday. I see the surgeon again for follow-up on the 24th.

I am getting my strength and energy back, so I am able to enjoy outings more. Molly and I went to The Columbus Zoo and Aquarium on Monday. It was a nice change of pace and place. ( We saw )

I hope you all are well. I will try to keep in touch a little better, and hopefully there will be updates more often. Happy Spring!!!

A Gift

This is a poem by Lela Florel from her book I Hear Your Name, Poems that Nurture and Empower:

Sometimes Things Happen

Sometimes things happen
And you are no longer strong
The fabric of your life is torn
A chasm opens up and you are lost alone
No trace of what was ordinary yesterday
Your new reality not yet born.
In a middle world you wander
Between the past and future.

Give yourself time and nurture
Grieve well, let go of losses
For you need to birth your future.
Look through the fabric’s hole
To see the endless choices,
Pulling tattered threads around you,
Weave in the chosen options,
Alone with old beloved patterns.

Step back into the stream of life
For life has chosen you to live
Strong again, and vibrant
In your new and vital garment.


Molly found it for me with a heart pendant at Woman Wisdom's online store. (You can also check out Lela's web site at http://lelaearthspirit.com/pages/home.html. The poem really expresses how I feel right now and gives me hope, because others understand how events in our lives can turn our lives around. Molly is so sweet and thoughtful :) Thank you!